A Soft Heart

Doing hard things requires soft hearts. As we gently move along with Jesus. We don’t have to worry or figure it all out because we trust that He’s got us covered.

As I explained last week, I put off my MARPE journey for many years. Looking back, this was mostly because of my own ignorance, pride, and fear – I didn’t want to learn anymore about it and just kept putting the idea behind me. It was easier to think, “I’m fine.”

Well, I started noticing a few issues in my mouth I hadn’t before. Just normal shifts over time which made me compare old photos and ask questions. I saw patterns in my patients who have lost teeth. The Lord finally got my attention!

When I was going through the decision-making process, I thought of something my mom told Lydia when she started braces seven years ago. She said, “Do everything you can to have healthy teeth and mouth.” She had had a variety of teeth issues all her life and didn’t want Lydia to go through that. I felt she would tell me the same thing, if she were here.

Several times, in the past few months at church, we’ve sung “The Lord will Provide,” and the lyrics settled my soul. “Everything I need, I know my Father has it… So seek first the kingdom and its treasures… Everything else, it will be added, All that I’m needing… I know the Lord will provide.”

Having a soft heart means you are able to perceive what Jesus is doing and where He is leading you. For reference, the picture above was from October. My cute smile is a little crooked, and if you zoom in, you can see my teeth are misaligned, which is one aspect the MARPE should address. God does not waste our pain or our life experiences.

My mouth pain and other symptoms are improving overall. I am actually breathing better through my nose, which is a huge perk! I’m still working on eating and talking clearly, and my smile looks a little wonky (maybe due to nerves?). Thank you to everyone who has checked in on me! I appreciate the calls, texts, cards, ice cream, and cute plant!

A heart soft to God invites peace into every situation. On Monday, I wasn’t sure how my day would unfold. I had four patients, mostly back-to-back. I didn’t know when I would eat lunch, let alone have time to attend to my new mouth routine. I didn’t expect sympathy, but I also didn’t want to confuse my patients with my sometimes garbled words. I prayed about it and just decided to let God organize my day.

A soft heart means less stress, and I was able to enjoy my day as it played out. When I briefly explained my situation, the first Veteran commiserated, “Oh, I was just at the dentist!” The next man said, “I understand – I’m going to the dentist next!” And the other said, “No worries, I’m hard of hearing anyway!” The last patient no-showed, which meant I had adequate time to eat lunch and take care of my teeth. What grace!

In the afternoon, I had an orthodontist appointment, followed by my church training. I added some rubberbands to my new gear and turned the wrench on my device for the first time. I skipped the meal and ate beforehand so I could clean my device thoroughly. A friend brought Lydia home after school events. It all worked out!

Yesterday, I had another busy day, and God worked it out for me in a similar way! I am grateful God softened my heart, and I humbly listened to His wisdom about my teeth. I have learned a lot, and it is already drawing me closer to Him!

**********

Heavenly Father, thanks for Your peace and provision. Thank You for ordaining my steps each day. Help me bring glory to You. In Jesus’ Name, Amen

Questions: How can you humble yourself and have a soft heart today? What would that look like for you?

 Task: Watch this video on the Pharaoh of the Exodus and the hardening of his heart.

Finding Grace #517

You may have seen the acronym GRACE as God’s Riches At Christ’s Expense. Grace is also God’s unmerited favor, or God doing for us what we cannot.

I find grace overflowing with God’s love, joy, peace, blessings, mercy, power, provision, protection, and wisdom. Thank You, Jesus!

Where did I find God’s love and favor—His abundant grace—this week?!

This week was pretty ‘chill’ since I was recovering from oral surgery! Lydia had her final orthodontic appointment on Monday, and I had my first! On Tuesday, I had my palate cut and the expander placed, and then I was home the rest of the week!

I’m glad I was able to clear my schedule, other than one appointment, and dropping off Lydia at school and picking her up a few times. Mostly, I was able to take some naps, read, and study (a little) for my training course at church. My coworkers have been great to check in, and they signed a card and gave me an adorable little plant.

It’s funny how long it takes to eat, brush my teeth, and take a variety of medications (separate due to timing). I think it will get better when I am done with the antibiotics. I am taking some kefir to help restore my gut bacteria. It’s helpful to be a dietitian, lol!

Overall, I am grateful for minimal pain and the flexibility I had this week. I still have a little pain and swelling, but I am figuring out what I can eat, and many of my other symptoms are resolving. It could have been much worse. I am determined to make the best of this and praise God for the opportunity to address these issues – staying home in the bitter cold was a bonus!

Lydia had a Speech meet today and placed third in her very first extemporaneous event! I hope to see her at one of her local meets soon!

While she was gone, I did some of my usual Saturday things at home. I enjoyed making some phone calls. I am feeling better day by day, and it was good to practice speaking with the MARPE device in my mouth!

**********

These are only a few examples, but God’s grace never runs out!

There’s grace in every situation—we just need to look for it. God promises if we seek Him, we will find Him (see Jeremiah 29:13)!

Doing Hard Things

Starting a new adventure is never easy! But we can’t keep moving forward if we are unwilling to do hard things. You can’t have transformation without tension.

For several decades, I have been told that I “should do something about my teeth.” Just about every dentist I’ve had has said something to that effect. By and large, I have ignored them. Although three years ago, I reluctantly agreed to at least talk with an orthodontist where Lydia was receiving care. He mentioned palate expansion with oral surgery and possibly double jaw surgery after that! I said, “No way, that sounds intense!”

Well, this past August, my dentist mentioned it again. To be honest, I was pretty annoyed. Per usual, I thought, “What’s the big deal? My teeth are fine!” Yet, to ‘get him off my back,’ I returned to the orthodontist to see if they had any new tools or ideas. Nope!

This time, I asked what the actual problem was and received a fair amount of education. I knew my palate was too small, but I didn’t understand the implications until that day. Essentially, my top teeth are causing my bottom teeth to crowd into place. Imagine how you might squeeze the lid over the fourth corner of a Tupperware container.

I see patients every week with chewing problems. They might be missing some teeth, have a full set of dentures, or have a combination of both. Most of the time, the patients lament their situation to the point that I often pray about my own teeth. “God, please help me to have good, strong teeth that don’t fall out or have issues.”

So, when the orthodontist presented my options, I quickly realized that ignoring the problem would not make it go away. I’ve waited long enough. If nothing else, aging is a factor, and teeth just naturally move around over time. My bottom teeth have tilted inward around 40 degrees, which could expose the roots and invite damage or loss. My goal is not really aesthetic but prevention!

I prayed, discussed with family and friends, weighed the pros and cons, watched lots of videos, and read comments online. As it all sank in, I realized this option could be an answer to prayer. It doesn’t take any faith to do nothing! As the orthodontist said, I should not let fear dictate my decision. He said whatever I decide should come from the fact that I deserve to have a healthy, functioning mouth.

So, as you might guess, I decided to do the palate expansion called a MARPE, which stands for Mini Screw Assisted Rapid Palate Expansion. On Monday, I had an orthodontic appointment and learned more about what to expect. I already had peace, but this was confirmation.

Then, yesterday, I had oral surgery to cut part of my palate down the middle because it fuses closed in our youth. The MARPE device was attached with six screws! It was minor surgery, but they put me out for it. Thanks to my friend, Sara, for being my ride and staying with me until evening!

After a week or so of initial healing, I will start cranking the expander to split my palate. Over time, my body will fill the cut with new bone, making the result several millimeters wider. I’ll have a gap in the middle of my front teeth again, just like third grade!

I am still in some pain, which is to be expected. I took the rest of the week off to recover and focus. I am learning to eat and talk in new ways, which is a bit awkward! Right now, doing hard things includes a little pain, swelling, a bloody nose, a sore throat, multiple medications, and eating soft foods for a couple of weeks.

I am mostly looking forward to the process, seeing it as a step of faith and obedience. I appreciate your ongoing prayers for minimal pain and no infection. It won’t be easy, and there are no guarantees, but I’d also love to avoid the major surgery down the road!

**********

Heavenly Father, thanks for Your healing and protection. Thanks for leading me on this path and using it to make me more like Jesus. Help me be patient as I take each step of obedience. In Jesus’ Name, Amen

Questions: What hard things are you dealing with today? What is one step of faith and obedience you can take, however small?

Task: Consider the pros and cons of following through, taking one step, toward that hard thing. Compare a faith response with a fear response. Reminder: Doing nothing is often a fear response!